My Six Words

     Many people may think that six little words may not mean much, but to me, saying anything can mean an awful lot. When I was coming up with what I should put for my six word memoir, I thought of what I wanted to say to myself in the past. I had flashbacks and memories of my younger self running through my head. I knew that I wanted to make my six words something that would have been helpful to me back then. Saying something and backing it up are two very different things. Of course I wanted to hear someone tell me the words, "Please don't give up on yourself," or something along those lines. Not only did I want that, but I also wanted someone to stay true to their words. The person(s) who said something like this to me couldn't really handle me at my worst, which made me feel terrified because they lied to me. I'm saying these words now because I don't think that people should give up on themselves right away.

     These six words represent a ton of aspects in my life. Whether it be my personal life, my life at school, or my life at home, I know that I can't give up. If I gave up on myself when things got a lot more difficult in school, then I wouldn't be doing okay like I am now. I would've thrown away a lot of opportunities and chances. If I gave up on myself at home, I wouldn't be able to take care of my siblings or help out around the house. Things would be more problematic. Lastly, if I gave up on myself, I don't know where I'd be right now. I have several ideas, but I feel like I chose the right path that I'm on right now. A lot of people compare their problems to others to make themselves feel better, so the other person's problems don't matter. I really dislike that idea that we have to compare our problems with others to make ourselves feel better. Problems are problems, and everyone deals with them. Just because we're not dealing with someone's problem that may seem worse or better than ours doesn't defeat the fact that we have all got issues. Instead of comparing, we should learn to better ourselves on our own. We shouldn't give up on ourselves. If we take care of ourselves, I think that we'll have less problems than we do now.

     I had a lot of deep, dark, hateful thoughts back then. I still do now, but it is less intense. I did a lot of bad things to myself that I can't talk about right now, but I'm slowly learning to steer away from that path. With these words, I strongly encourage others to know that even if the world is giving up on you, or if everyone around you seems to not care, that shouldn't mean you should give up on yourself and stop caring. The one thing I used to say to myself all the time that helped inspire this memoir was, "You can only save yourself." I do actually really believe in these words because I know that you can't always rely on people to help you, so you'll have to help yourself as much as you can. If you think about it, if you give up, then you're giving up a chance to recover and get better. If I gave up, I know things would be much worse. Six words may not mean much, but six of the right words can mean a lot.